Thursday night was that kind of a night. In fact, almost every night this past week I have come home from work crying. And no, it isn’t that time of the month.
Graduating from college was awesome and yet, terrifying. Getting married at 24 was the right choice but also scary. Moving to another state was exciting but also life changing. Trying to find my place in this world…
The hardest thing I have ever had to do.
My biggest fear: getting stuck in a lifeless life
What I refuse to do: be taken advantage of
What I truly hate: being motivated by money
What I need: dance, writing, God – all the things that give this world and me in this world a purpose
How do I accomplish these things? I have no clue.
I do not want to work an 8-5 that I hate, only to have fleeting moments with the people that I love. Yet, people have to do this to put food on the table. So do I suck it up?
Which is more stupid? Settling for unhappiness or pursuing my dreams? Although the answer may be obvious, it isn’t. Look around. Look at this world. Look at the people.
Thankfully, I have many people who love me and care for me, as well as support me. Thankfully, I have a roof over my head, a warm bed to sleep in, a cute Pug to snuggle with, an amazing husband and food to eat. Thankfully, I have God.
And thankfully in the end, I refuse to settle.